Episode 12: Beginning April Showers

Welcome to fet and Catitude Booknook. We are your hosts. I'm Melissa and I'm Elise. This show is about two very best friends who love books but also love talking about life occurrences. Join us for the girl talk. It'll get real, it'll get fun, it'll get interesting. Sit down, buckle up, and let us talk to you about all the things. Thanks for joining us. Hey, guys, that was really loud. Sorry, I'll put you back over here. There's no good in between three. No. Hey, guys, Hey, we missed you. I missed you too, I know, but like every week, just like mah, even though I think it's so weird because like I'm definitely much more of like the personal person, Like I'm much more the outgoing I'm gonna go and meet people, so I'm just oh, I know. So I just think it's ironic. You're like, we've missed you, and I'm like, yeah, someone mad. But yeah, I just think it's funny because it's just like role reversal sometimes. See, I'm really good when I can't see who I'm talking to. Put me in a room with a bunch of people. No, but that's kind of me too, though. Just sit in the corner with my my my gang, like my people, and I'm that's all I do, that's all I need. Yeah, that's what makes me nervous. I'm not gonna lie about having a wedding because everyone there is my gang, and I'm gonna be. Like, who do I talk to? No, it's a little bit, I will say, it's a little bit overwhelming. And I think anybody that has like a larger wedding, I mean we have large families. Anyways. Yeah, I don't know what you want me to do. There's no way I can get that shit down. That's fine. I can hurt you like like a shepherd. No, you already know. You already know. I'm gonna give you that look and you're gonna be like fuck who Now. I love everybody, but I am a be by myself in my own corner person. Yeah. That's why my stepdaughter and her fiance, I mean, you guys just found out. They want to they want to do a private ceremony and then a big like reception. I think that's fine, go to that because honestly, people are mostly there for the party, listen, not lie. Like, yes, some people are there to like witness and it's it's nice. Most people are there for the booze. All I have to say is I know you're there because you're gonna be like fucking finally, only been eight years. I know I gotta start writing my speech now because I'm gonna have it ready. I don't care if I'm not making one. There's gonna be one, and you're gonna get a print out of it. Good thing. I'll let you know ahead of time. Asshole. You don't even have to let me know. It's just already gonna be written. You told me we were not making speeches and not to write one, so I didn't because you were very clear on that. And then we get down the aisle and back and you're like, by the way your speech is, baby been. I'm like what, I love you, but sometimes I want. To murder you because I didn't know because the groomsman that wanted to do it decided that day he was going to do one, which, yeah, I don't know. My wedding was most definitely like classic shotgun wedding. I was eight and a half months pregnant. You had her two weeks later. Yeah, like nothing went right that day. Yeah, I will never forget. Having my hair done and then putting my hair in a plastic bag so I could go out and get all the deck. What was pouring? I was the house. It poured on my wedding nas good luck though it is yes, and that's fine, like it is what it is like. And then they yelled at me for bringing the upside chairs inside and I was like, what is going on? Yeah? I don't get that, but whatever. Whatever, it's over with. Who cares. Welcome to the month of April. Woo, happy days. You know how I said how I wasn't going to read another book at the end of March. You lied? Yeah. I stayed up until about quarter to midnight last night and finished The Inmate by Freedom McFadden, my first ever freeda book. So once you got into it, it took me a second, It took you a little bit to get into it. But once you got into. It, did you like the twist season Attorneys and the second guessing literally everything? Yeah? Because it kept me glued? Yeah, yeah, no it was. It was actually really good. I quite enjoyed actually the twists and turns, And no I didn't. It wasn't at like, it wasn't like an oh my gosh ending or twist. It was much more of a huh twist. I do think you should read the Teacher. The Teacher next. Yeah, you had told me that, but it's funny that your sister also was like, you don't read the Teacher. Yeah, and I made sure. I was just like, oh, that's the one that Alissa had actually suggested. So I guess I have to read The Teacher. And believe it or not, I probably will finish. I finished one since last two, since last week, I'll probably finish another two. Yeah, you did say too at least two, so I yeah, so so yeah for so for March and now, I had a grand total of seven because I completely binge read The Inmate by Freedom of Fan, which was good. Yeah, they have Atmosphere by Tiller Jingens read that I'm listening to on Libby, And then I also gave up on my young. Adult book I was reading. Oh, actually, because I needed a break. I might have another one finished, depending on where my audio is. Yeah, because I listened to that the entire way today to Burlington. I started reading something borrowed, Something New Bye vy neland yesterday and I think I read. Like ten pages in the bathtub. I'm not gonna lie. Well, today I cannot put it down. I know, you keep picking it up every like, like whenever there's a moment. This one was sucking me back in. Yeah, I'm not gonna lie. This month was hard. I did not do well with reading because I just there's no focus there. Yeah, there's a lot of big changes happening and a lot of things I need to focus on, and reading is not see the top of my list right now. For me. Life has been a little bit complicated this last week or two, just personal life in general. I'm just I'm struggling a bit, just with everything going on. That's allowed. Yeah, no, I honestly, I kind of like Be invited us out to lunch, and I really appreciated that. I did want to go. I just I'm mentally drained, and I'm sure that people listening could probably hear it in my I'm just so drained. I'm I feel like I'm running in five different directions and being pulled apart. So get that. Really, I'm tired. I get that feeling. Yeah, I know you don't. I just finish the last really big project I have to do before I leave, and it was really bittersweet because that's been my baby for over two years and I have to pass the reins off, which is fine, it's just that's been my baby, you know. So I just looked on Audible too. I am going to finish Keeping thirteen Part one. Honestly, I should probably just read it like right now because or listen to it right now, because there's only like ten minutes left and because I read on double speed, it's gonna be done in five right. I didn't realize so else I would have stayed in the truck and listened to the rest of it. So I'll have two done before, so I'll have eight woo woo, and I'm in between right now. I think I'm gonna try to read Toxic because I want to get back into like I don't know from my palate cleansers are dark romances. It shouldn't be, but it is. I also am fifth in line for Great, Big, Beautiful Life by Emily Henry, and then sixteenth in line for. Remarkably Bright Creatures Nice. Yeah, there's twelve on hold right now in Lebby, so I'm assuming I'll have access to those within the next few days. And I'm not gonna lie, I might finish more than one. Mm hmmm. Well and if our schedule do you know what your schedule looks like yet? No? If if your schedules matchup, we can end up reading or listening to stuff together on our way into work. Because we are now going to be working in the same building on the same floor. I know that's so scary. It's so exciting but also so scary. I was gonna say, I'm so terrified because I know how we are together. But at the same time, I'm like, no, I think we'll just turn into like there'll be a personal life us and then a professional life as although we will still always come get you to go for walks and stuff like that because we do a lot of walking. Yeah. So, as we've talked about before, our book read for quarter two, which we are going to go read the first nine chapters. I know it's kind of an odd number. I mean it is an odd number. I'm so slapper, I'm so funny. The book we're gonna read is the one by John Mars and we're going to read nine chapters. Which is like fifty pages. I mean it's gonna be like, Okay, So this week we're reading chapters one through nine. Forty four pages stop at ten, No. So it's gonna be like fifty pages, right. Forty four pages was the end of eight. Right, so we're actually gonna finish June twenty sixth. We figured that a week in between or two weeks in between is really really good because it gives us a chance to, you know, everyone, take a break, read something else. It also gives us an opportunity to get prepped for the next book read and do our like count all the numbers and stuff like that. And it's gonna get harder the farther we get in, more listeners we get, so trying to give myself a little break, trying. And I do want to say I'm sorry that this one probably will not be as long as normal. Last week wasn't as long as normal, Like Elie said, There's just been some stuff that we gotta worry about outside of this. And we do not want to let you down. So we are here and we are giving it all of the effort. Just know that it will get better with them. I do want to do one shout out. This week, just like I also have a shout out this week. Okay, go ahead. Do we have the same shout out? I wonder okay tomorrow, which is Monday, because we are back to recording on our Sunday. We're not recording like randomly again. Tomorrow is the thirtieth of March. Is my sister's birthday. Happy Birthday. I'm not gonna be like grab and sing Happy Birthday through the microphone. I'm not doing that. Just know that I'm mentally singing it in my head. You can hear me singing. It, also singing it. I'm singing it Marilyn Monroe style. What is your shut out? So I know we've talked about her before. Is it your cousin? It is? She told me she's on book number five for the year girl, and that's what she just told me the other day. It's either book four or book five. I'm pretty sure it's book five. And I'm so proud of her from someone who went to no reading and write and she's listening to audiobooks and she loves it. Yes, I'm so proud. I love the peer pressure. She actually put it on Facebook releader. She's like, I need recommendations and I was like, oh, I got cute, got a list. She's very much into true crime, a little mystery. She'd probably like the ones that I do. I bet you she would like those. Oh, I bet you she absolutely would love those. But those you do need to get, like the physical book. I promise you, you need to get the physicals because it comes with pictures. It's like a little picture book. She has two helliens that I love very much, and I do not think a physical. Book right now. No, And I understand that completely. I totally get that. I'm just saying, don't get those on audio because you're not con with you. It comes with pictures for a reason, because it's all about placement usually, so they give like I do kind of love it because not everybody has that mindset of creating a picture in their mind. So trying to explain where things are in like a floor plan, sometimes you need the pictures. See it's the weird saying. I say, like, if you were to tell me picture and apple, I can do that every single day of the week. It's real, it's physical. I can hold it in my hand. I don't know what it looks like, right. Do not ask me to build a world where I have to imagine forty seven different places because it ain't happen. You already have a little world inside your brain. Yeah, and normal bouncing through go do do do do do do. Why do you remember those blow up bouncy balls where you like sound. It with my as we have a bluey one. Well that's what I'm doing through my world is I'm on a big one, just bouncing. Okay, so my inner brain. Did you ever watch Labyrinth? No, so you should know better than to ask me if I've watched a movie. You should know that. So my mind is Labyrinth. It's that's just what it is, like with all the creeps and everything. Like you and I will have to have a movie night and watch this. Maybe I am not a movie type of girl. I'm gonna strap you down, open your eye like, uh no, never mind. You you don't probably even watch that either, what robot Chicken? I don't even know that, so never mind? They like never mind. So so yeah, we're gonna do nine chapters each week. This week, we're gonna read chapters one through nine. Stop at ten? Can do? I figured out all by myself. I also figured it out the other day too, and I was like, well, we could do some this time and some this time, and I was like, I just don't care anymore. It came out to be eight and a half chapters a week, and I was just like, we'll just go up to nine and then have some time for ourselves and some time to process the book, because I kind of. I'm still angry. I'm not gonna lie, and I already said that this book does the same thing. I'm gonna throw it out the window. And I'm not reading any more book. So I didn't really tell you what is this a series? How many are in this fucking series? I hate you? No, you don't do three. It's one of three. I'm not reading more than one, probably unless you. Get really into it. But it's one of three. Have you read the blurb? Do you think I'm gonna get really into it? Who knows? You might? I might, We'll see. I know. No, it's much more dystopian and fantasy. Yeah, I know. I'm not whining about it. I'm just saying I probably read one. Didn't I say last time that you were gonna whine about it? Here we are. I haven't even started yet and I'm already one. That's okay. That's why we're giving ourselves a full week today read nine chapters. It's like fifty pages a week should give you plenty of time to whine. So some news for April oop boop. So April is Autism Awareness Month. It is also Sexual Assault Awareness Month and Animal Cruelty Prevention Month and Child Abuse Prevention Month. I looked all these up. I felt so inspired. Last month was Undo Awareness Month? Was it? We've missed it? Oh no, that's okay. So somebody slacked this week too slack. There's just sometimes when you go to look at the links, they're not up until the so it doesn't even matter. So there are I believe going to be several stuff you're kindlebays, But unfortunately, like I said, they don't always release the links, or if you follow the links, they don't actually work until the first So I don't want to put out another link that's broken or it doesn't work like last time, because yeah, that was not one. Yeah. I do have our list of book releases for the month of April. There weren't a lot of names that I necessarily knew, but there were some that I knew. So April seventh is a big day for a lot of book releases. We have the second book of Shield of Sparrows, which is called Right of the Starling by Devinie Perry. One I actually I read the blurb before it and I was like, oh, I actually would really like that is Yesteryear by Carol Claire Burke. It's you'll have to read the blurb, but it's so good. The Escape Game by Maris Meyer, and I think it's supposed to be Marissa Meyer and Tmarra Moas American Fantasy by Emma strab The Wicked See by Jordan Stephanie Gray, which is the first of a series. The Verdant Cage by Jess Lowry, which is the author that we just read for our quarter one, so she's coming out with one on the seventh. This one was probably one of the bigger names that I knew. Twisted Pond by L. J. Shin, which is the Society of Villain's book two writer by Jessica Peterson, which is Lucky River Ranch number five. It's one of your westerns. Yeah, I think I just started buying that series. Yes, you did, so. The fifth one is coming out on the seventh. Woo. It doesn't matter because I can't read them yet. I'm being very good and sticking to my twenty six and twenty six unless someone lends me a book, which sucks because there are so many books that I just bought that I want to read. I know that I told you. I picked up like one book from my twenty sixth from twenty six and I'm like no. And then the last one for April seventh that I found noteworthy was This Land Is Your Land, A road Trip through US History by Beverly Gage. That's not cool. Yeah, April fourteenth, The Auction by Sadie kin Say Kinsade, Yeah, can Sade. I've actually been trying to win that on the giveaway four months. And then the last one for the fourteenth is West of the Wicked by Nikki Saint Crow, who was a big author, and that is going to be the first of the series, The Great and the Terrible Land, which I believe is like a spin off of Wizard of Oz or Wicked. I'm not quite positive, but either way, but Nicky Saint cro is the one that wrote the She's the one that wrote the Never King series. It's the Vicious Lost Boys series. So yeah, I was kind of right, pretty much right, kind of I just missed one word. April twenty fourth, excuse me. April twenty first, My Dreadful Darling by HD Carlton, which is the first of a duet called Hallow Graves Love Overboard by Candy Steiner Steiner Steiner. That one I've also been trying to kid on giveaway for a while and we cap losing. April twenty eighth is the last state that I have. And April twenty eighth, The King of Gluttony by hall Along, thank you, and that is the sixth book of King of Sins perfect and one last one, The ghost Writer by Julie Clark, and that one. I read the blurbell on that one too and it seems really good. So several book releases coming out in April, which is awful. Look slady, it's very exciting. It is very exciting. Please be watching our socials for the poster to go up with the updated te Stuff your kindles. Like I said, unfortunately, I just don't want to put out a bad link again. That's fine, and we'll go over stuff your Kindles next. Week absolutely once I have a chance to make sure that links work. And yep, I just. Want to show you this is my list of books that I'm waiting on. Oh my duds on Libby. No on if I win them? Oh on which one StoryGraph? Oh, I don't do good Reads anymore. I got like four notifications that story graph I didn't win, and I'm like, oh, but I still have like several of them that still haven't And I'm like, okay, just get to my turn already. I want them. I don't have to pay for them, that's a bonus. It's been far too much money on books. Do we want to do a question of the week? Yes, yeah, I know you were excited for this one when you found it. I am. We could do a whole podcast on just this one. Right, So this is gonna take up the next like half of our episode today. What is in our Amazon book wish lists? Oh that's that's naughty. Hold on, I gotta get there. Mine's been pulled up. Oh that's such a bullsh I know, because you pull them so I don't have I don't get to like think about it before you even like. So, I have two wish lists going on right now, because eventually I'd like to post our wish lists on socials, but I just don't feel like that now I feel like that would be awful, Like, please, sir, can I have another? I have such a wild mix of books. I also do. So I have a couple Ellen Hopkins books. I have a bunch of like used to be TikTok or book Talk books. That were some people really loved and some people really hated. But I do have to tell you there's something I'm really really interested in, So the case of Murderous Doctor Cream, the hunt for a Victorian era serial killer. And then I have a. Couple Alispini books. I don't know if you watch Selena peeky Boo on TikTok. Okay, so she was the one last week. I meant to mention this, that was the one I couldn't think of last week, And I scrolled upon one of her videos and I'm like, God, damn it, that's exactly who it was. So Selena Myers is Selena pa Peekaboo, and she has two books out now. I think so Hollow is on my list. I would absolutely love to read one of her books. She's so so fun, She's so fun. I have a bunch of Christmas books. Yeah, that's all you. I'm not I don't na Nana Nana. I have a bunch of shel Silver Scene of course my favorite. Is it bad that some of my list is actually books I've already read. I just want them as trophies. Same, this is one that I want so badly. It's called the Encyclopedia of Serial Killers, Who, When, Where, Why? True stories that will make you shiver. M h, I want it. So. Oh I've got the whole Kingmakers series, yeah, which is I think six books, five books, but it goes through each year of high school and then graduation day. Yeah. I've got the Sweet Oblivion, the Female Feathers, so Vicious, Song of Achilles, sir Cy, that's sick love. Oh, all of the six books of Legacy of God series. All of the Lord's series even though I've I've read all of them, but Chaotic so, all the Outlanders series. Oh, the complete Silky Stackhouse True Blood series. So that's in my Catitude wish list list. I also so I'm a little bit adhd OCD with my list on Amazon. So i have two, three, four, five different lists just for books. Are you ready for these? Because I've got books, random books, wish list, books for kids, books for older kids, and then my Catitude wish list. Well, let's just put it this way. I have eight hundred and twelve books on my book wish list. Just christ I also I put some that were like young adults that I just never got into as a young adult, like City of Bones. Yeah, Fallen, I don't know why. I'm in a shipwreck romance sort of mood lately. Oh are you a romance sort of mood lately? Are you reading lovey books? Do you love them? Your faces? Yes? Hence why I'm going back to my dark romances like Palette Cleanser. Yeah, I've got a lot of I've got a lot of dark romance on here. I've got romanticy Oh, the complete Spiderweight Chronicles. Really you didn't like those? Ah, it's fantasy? What am I talking about? I've got a bunch of Jess Lowry on here because I actually did enjoy it. It did piss me off, but I did enjoy the book. I also enjoyed the book, Do not get me wrong. I really really liked it. Right now, I need a break though, because I'm really irritated. I also have Okay, so I have a couple social like Selena's. Do you know Darcy and jer Beart. Darcy is a book. I want it. I want it so bad. All of the Ice Planet Barbarian books. I remember when you started reading the first one and you're like, what the fuck is going on? Because that was like, right, I think that was almost directly after I listened to DNA Vipers and that was like one of my first dark, dark romances. And then I got to that and I'm like, the you did. D Vipers and then you did Haunting, uh, Haunting Adeline, because I remember you messaging me when you were reading Haunting Adeline and you're like, what the fuck is going on? She stuck what where? Or he did he stuck? What where? Don't you think that's dangerous? That could have been really bad? Remember this conversation because blown away. Well, because I was thinking, like again, like with with one of the books in the Lord series, almost the exact same thing happens almost and I'm just like I got to that part and I'm like, yeah, I guess like my logic side of the like dark romance, like me tried to make some excuses for these characters, has now like gone out the window, and I'm just like, oh, I just accepted now, but it was much like at that time. I was just like, what if the safety went off? I remember you were like, what the fuck? What am I reading? Why am I reading this? And I was like, girl, I don't know. You chose it, don't yell at me. Yeah, that was. That was one book I actually couldn't finish, though, was Hunting Adeline. I just did not finish. Hunting Adeline was enough. Yeah, Hunting Adeline was. It wasn't for me. Yeah, I had to stop, and I might go back to it eventually. I just. Yeah, I wasn't. I wasn't ready. Oh look at that podcasting for Dummies. I think we still need that. Yeah, absolutely, that's a no brainer. Yeah, I've got some one here that I have actually gotten before, because I have a lot on here that are missing from my series that I have in my library for you, and I do have some I've gotten some of those already. But that's why I keep this list, because if I find out on like what not with people selling, I'm like, oh fuck, yeah, like I'll grab that at a discounted price. Sounds good, So I did. I finished my Harry Potter series. I finished my Fifty Shades of Gray. Series. With that, she bundled the H Gray the book Gray with it. That was fantastic. I was like, yeah, thank you so much. I also, did I ever tell you so the story. We've explained the story before in our introduction episode. I believe of how Alyssa and I became best friends at Barns and Noble. Yeah the book. Oh no, not that book. It was later we went with Mike. Yeah, it was my old coworker, and we found this astrology book and all of our significant others are born in July. Yep, all of them, and they're like a week or two weeks apart for their birthdays. Oh no, I think H T and h T H then B right, but I think they were like a day apart or something like that. The day apart, and then my husband is like two weeks after TEA something like that. Yeah. Anyways, so we're doing this astrology book and it's like an in depth like to the day, this is what your day means on and they were pretty spot on, but we were giggling hysterically. I found that book. Jesus Christ, and I'm like, yeah, I don't feel like we need that. Oh I don't either. I just think it's hilarious that it's there. Yeah, but yeah, it was pretty spot on. Was this after a little miss ma'm I was born. I feel like it was right before you had her. Nope, nope, Uh, that was the same day we went out for her. We took her out for celebrating her engagement, yep. And we went wine tasting, and you got a little drunky drunk. I did not. I did not drink that much. I had less than one of the shooters by myself. You guys drank the rest of them because I am not a wine girl. Don't tell me I got drunky drunk because I did not. No, but you liked your just dessert wines. They were sweet. You liked like one. I brought it home and drank half a bottle and we dumped it because I hated it. So, girl, that is alcohol abuse. It's like the pig with the buttons. Abuse abuse, Merlin, I love it. You know what I'm talking about, though, I was not child abuse. Say daddy abuse. I'm not abusing you. Just say daddy daddy butts right here? No, see, okay, So I. Done with me, mommy, I mean every why is it? Oh? Lord? Honestly that Kyder reminds me of. Like, So I came home early to drop off some tax documents Friday, mm hmmm, and I walk in the door. My husband isn't home yet. I walk in the door and my daughter comes running up and she just like waves at me, and I'm like, oh, go hi, how do you how was your day? My husband walks through the door, daddy, and I'm like, I love you too, yep. And my my father was watching her at the time, and he goes, oh, that sounds about right. That's rude. That's so rude. But I know who the favorite is. That's okay, don't worry. I just cleaned your shitty ass diapers. Or like, the first thing I did was why are you doing that? Stop? Uncle? TI gets to be nice, Daddy gets to be nice. I'm like, no, don't do that again. She had a really good time actually today visiting it was It was fun. But my grandmother's in the hospital right now for some obviously some medical stuff. But we went up to visit her, and first of all, we parked way far away from the hospital, which was fine because I was like, I can get a good walk in. My daughter loves walks. So I'm like, yeah, let's like go for a walk, and she was having a great time. I brought some books for her and my aunt was sitting on the couch with her reading, and I'm just like, cool, I'm glad this is going well because my daughter was a little bit freaked out by all the tubes and whatnot, like she just didn't know, like that's not normal. She just knew. Yeah, but yeah, she was having a great time, probably dirty as all hell, but because she you know, she was rolling around on the floor whatever, weird weird things. I think she'll be fine too. Weird fair. I don't know how many times she got called my child today at the hospital. Yeah, well that is you. Oh. But then but then my aunt ended up saying like something. We were talking about burgers for whatever reason, I don't know why. Oh, my grandmother had a turkey burger for no, they're good. So she had a turkey burger for lunch and it was massive. I had to cut it for her. She couldn't cut it. So we were talking about burgers and my aunt ended up saying that her burger that she got like the like last night or something, was like so much bigger than the burger that my grandmother just ate. And my grandmother looks at her, turns around to her and goes, how did you fit that in your mouth? And I just started because, Okay, Like, my aunt is a very vocal lady. She's very outspoken. She just tells you how it is. We've always, like the whole family has always called her a loud mouth. She's it's very loud, and that's fine. I'm used to it. I love it. But when my my grandmother like she knew she was setting the joke up, like she knows, and I think she she's eighty nine years old, she knows what she's doing. So she's just looked, how did you fit that in your mouth? And my aunt goes, don't worry, I have a big enough mouth to fit all that. And I'm like, ah, but it also makes. Sense where my fiance gets it, because that's my future mother in law. And he told me one day. He looks at me deadly and goes, I don't really like talking to people, and I said, you're a fucking liar. He's gonna listen to this too, and he's gonna be, yeah. Exactly, you always mean to me every podcast. We are not being me to you. I'm being honest, same thing. I just would like you to know that ahead of time. I love you dearly, but I'm just. Being It's the same thing. I don't know. And in my family, if we aren't picking on you, we don't like you, so obviously we really like you. I don't, but I love you. I don't, you know. I don't know how many like videos I've seen on TikTok this week alone that are like, it's like the brother relationship things. Oh my god, And I'm just like, see, this is why. This is why the Lord didn't make us like blood siblings. This is why we were not made. We're not destined to be blood. Could you imagine if you all were siblings? Oh my god, he would be like, I hate you both. Get out of here. He's already liked that. What are you talking about? Yeah no, it would not have been I mean, yeah, it would have been good. It's still not good. It's already not so okay, So we're gonna go read I think yes, we are. I would love it, I guess, because I'm really debating if I read. It right now or not. My book that's fine, you can read your book. That's fine. I'll go out and read the other one. No, it's fine, I'll read it. You're gonna be done it. I was gonna say you're gonna be done it in like five minutes. Anyways, So Alice was messing with. The sound doing something and I had literally just picked up my book. She's like, oh my gosh, I'm done. I'm so sorry. You just picked up your book. And I was like, it's fine, I've read two pages, and she was. Like, yeah, I did make a little like chuffing noise. I was like, you just picked it up. Do you like skim read or something like power read through that? No, that's all I can imagine you're hearing in your brain. I talk fast. I read faster than I talk. You might talk fast, but your dog really really loud. I've been all up in this Mike's business, and I'm being loud today. Bite me. I'm trying really hard. Oh good, I hope it hurts your earballs. A oh. As you can tell, we are both lacking sleep, oh my god, and life has. Been a little bit wild. So we are punchier than normal. Which takes a lot because I'm always sorry casm is real. I need a Oh, I need a Marguerite. I having to say a shot, and I was like, girl, good luck. I could go for one of those two. Here, I can go to bed. Yeah, I know. I was up until faking quarter midnight and A was up at six. Broski, I know, I know you don't sleep anyways. I got in bed at nine thirty because I was so done listening to the video. I know, because you'd never answered me last night. I didn't go to sleep. I put my phone away and I was reading. And that is perfectly fine too. I'm not I'm never offended if you don't answer me unless I call you and I keep calling you. Yeah. Well, I read until probably one o'clock. Finally fell asleep, was up at two, was back asleep. Last time I looked at my clock it was like two forty five. Was up at four, dozed for half an hour, and was out of bed by five thirty. But also I feel bad. I don't feel bad. No, I have no sympathies today. I have no energy to deal with anybody. I had enough energy to do this, and I knew that we would probably crash on the couch, so. I literally didn't get off my couch today if I didn't have to. I pretty much sat on the couch all day yesterday because I was just an emotional wreck. So I laid under the blankets, I snuggled with my puppy, and I read the book that I read over one hundred and fifty pages yesterday. And that is like bizarre for me, really bizarre. I had a large toxicic toxic expresso. Oh yeah, yeah told me that. And the amount of caffeine coursing through my vans, I was like, I ca it's anymore. I thought I was having a heart attack at one point because my heart was beating so hard. I literally was in the bathtub and the water was bouncing with my heartbeat, and I was like, that's probably not great. I love that. Just christ And it was really bad, Like my whole body was like. I was like, this is how I died. Oh, kevine is how I die. It's a good way to go. I haven't really been doing a lot of caffeine lately, so I mean I've been doing coffee. I've been doing a lot more coffee lately because I've just been so exhausted. Yeah, but I did do I actually was a good girl and got I got. I went shopping on Thursday and got special here's a red Bull for you my husband because he likes red Bulls. But I found the white peach ones. I like those, yeah, But I'm like, I'm trying to be really good on my diet, so I was like, I'll get this sugar free one. It was fine. I actually really liked it, like sugar free red Bull better, So I yeah, I actually probably liked that one a little bit better. And I was like I was okay with that, and I sipped on that all day yesterday on the couch. But because of my ADHD, I don't really get the whole like zing from caffeine. I'm just like, ah, it just feels good. Normally I don't get a zing from caffeine. Yesterday, I was like, I was sitting on the couch trying to do a diamond painting and my hands were shaking so bad. I was like, well, we need to be done with this now. Oh. Like I went to shake the bead thing to make them all live flat, and I was like, I was like, okay, yes, we're done. No more for me, Jesus. I wasn't gonna take a bath, but I put all my stuff away, and Tea was like, are you gonna go take a tubby? And I was like, I wasn't going to, but probably I should go cool off. Probably I should remove myself from this situation. But with that being said, I think I want Tea. That's what I want right now. So I want Okay Garfield. I don't know why. I just have those mad onright now. I don't have anything for lasagna or else. I would make it fine. I'm not worried about it. I'll forget about it in two hours anyway. Anyways, thanks for listening. Sorry about a rambling. What else is name? And what you want from me? I was just like having a conversation with us. We're just not hearing you. But okay, Well, we'll talk to you guys next episode. Be sure to read your one through nine chapters, so end on ten. Do not read chapter ten. I'm gonna go read it. Listen. We will talk to you guys next week in next week's episode. Have fun. Let me see you bye. That was a short one. Bye you, good bye, goodbye bye. I'm done