Episode 10: Confession Time

Welcome to fet and Catitude Booknook. We are your hosts. I'm Melissa and I'm Elise. This show is about two very best friends who love books but also love talking about life occurrences. Join us for the girl talk. It'll get real, it'll get fun, it'll get interesting. Sit down, buckle up, and let us talk to you about all the things. Thanks for joining us. That was so much better. Oh my god, I know. I mean, we were both so scared. We were both so scared to have like a mic in our face. I know, if I think about it, we're only what two months? In three months? In three months, you're two and a half, You're two and a half. About the way that I'm so comfortable now like sharing all of the bullshit. I mean, I love that for us. I did want to say, I don't I think I had told you last night because you had come over. This is like a rare occurrence weekend where you're over both days of the weekend. Yay for me. Well, because I told T that we were having a date on Saturday. After he's done, we are having no, I did say, I said we are having a date, and I gave him two options. No, actually I said, we have a gift card, let's go here. Perfect. Well we did not go where we. No, because you got you got a hold of me and you were like, hey Chinese, and I'm like, I had literally just finished pressing scent on my order for Hannafords or else I would have been like, yeah, sure, but I don't know. So we have a confession to make. Sorry, guys, you might want to stop listening after we tell you this, just just for a little bit, give you some time to catch up, because we are terrible humans. And we finished the book and didn't tell you because I could not wait any longer, and I was very entoy. No, this is so, this is how it went down last week. When we were sitting on the couch, We're both looking at each other. We finished the five chapters and we were like, we have to finish. I was like, I can't do this for one more week. I need to know what happens now. Yeah, I can't do so we are only going to review the last five chapters. I wrote notes so we would not go any further. I say, we just do the whole thing and they can pause it and listen to it again. Fine, we have no self control. Well, it will also give everybody a nice like break before we start our quarter to read, which is fine. If you haven't voted for that, please go do that like yesterday. Yeah, I have the pull up on Facebook. I have it on TikTok as well. Just find the post. I think I pinned both of them to our profiles. So find those votes because currently it feels very unfair because my my TBR read is for some. List, which is fine. You need help on your physical TBR right now, so I'll take it. I want to say it's so mean, but it's so true. I am I have not like I have a problem right now. I have a problem. Like I've just been buying books left and right. I know you, Yeah, girl. Let me tell you my husband loves me right now. And at last bought a new Kindle and she bought a new Kindle stand, and she bought a Kindle clicker, and she bought what seven physical books? Seven? Girl? Have you seen that like stack out there? It's more like twelve goes. I thought you were trying to get rid of read through all your physical Yeah. The packages just keep coming in and he's like, you are not going to be able to physically get through any of your TBR like in your lifetime, and I'm like, I'll get there when I'm retired. I'll have all the. Time in the world. What I'm working for is so I can retire and read. No, you're working so you can retire and we can shop on the beach. I know. Yeah, everybody look out for that's we're gonna like call it fetching catatute book notes. We are. We're just going to name it after the podcast. Involves convincing our husband's to relocate. I don't think mine will have much of a problem. Mine, well, yeah, I know. It depends if the kids are not here, then he probably like great, cool. I don't care, right, it is what it is. I also wanted to mention, as of yesterday, we have made a grand total of two dollars rolling in the flipping. It's a dollar each. We're very proud of ourselves. I know that that doesn't seem large, but for us, that is fan freakantastic. We were not even sure that we would get two people to listen to this that weren't our families. Oh, this is true, this is so true. I mean, I we talked about this like I've had issues in the past with going through and continuing things like I'm not what. I was like, what the fuck, Alice, what are you. Jesus Christ? Did you seem to be like? Oh? Yeah, at least keeps a notebook with her while we while we do this, and she takes notes and she has a list of what we're talking about and all that stuff. And this is how to set up our sounds open. Vocaster, which is our mic hub. Set up anyway, keep going up. So sick to me said open to me, and I was like, what the fuck? Okay, just just for preference to like, just just for everybody to know. We are recording late tonight. It's so late. It's seven thirty. This is not super late for us. This is so late. This is so late. We're normally recording aywhere like noonish. Usually we try to get it done early ish. So we're a little bit late. I hear little feet. Ah. So yeah, it's a little bit later than what we normally and you put this down around someone to play with it the whole time. It's a little bit later than what we normally record at. So this probably will not be a long episode. Yes, I know, I say that every single time we say that it's an hour long. So I don't think we have an hour and tonight I'm not going to lie. The boys were up playing video games far into the evening last night, and then we went home and went our separate ways for several hours. We had to get up and get going this morning for some stuff, and then we were back here and had dinner, and Little took a tubby and all the things. I want to make it very well known. I was not joking last night when I said I was falling asleep reading my book. My eyes kept closing. I know they were just living their best lives. And I'm happy. I'm happy for the last PEE weekend. Okay, I could give two shits less you know what else is to XP me going to fucking sleep. But here's the thing. If they are preoccupied with double XP weekend, that gives us all the free range to do whatever we would like. We should have recorded last night is what we should have done, but we did not because we were not thinking. And also we were just reading and chilling out and it felt nice. Yes, we don't get to do that together often. So let's talk about the book because we did finish it. We are guilty as all hell. And I'm not only talking about the ones that we're supposed to read. I'm just gonna do the whole thing. Okay, So if you don't want to hear it, shut it off. Now, finish the book and come back. Sorry. I am not sorry at all. So this is your warning ahead of time. However, I do want to like say, this will give you some time to like pause and come back. But come back to this moment, your hubby, there was a reugh what did you say? There was like you were listening to something. Oh, we were watching a show today. What were we watching? I don't know. You said it must have been a true crime of somehow. It wasn't it. We were watching Sheriff Country. Oh and one of the newer episodes was talking about how these there was twenty people or something like that. I don't know, in the last twenty years people have gone missing from this festival. And T looks at me and goes, that's like the Cory Girls. So even though he's not actually physically reading it like he's I'm I'm so happy that we're able to synopsize the five chapters a week so even if you aren't listening, it's like kind of listening. I don't know, they're kind of reading. I should say, Oh goodness, So here's your warning again. Go read, finish the book, come back. It's very short, and you will be very angry. I feel like I have more questions now I'm actually reading it. So I've mentioned this before too. I actually wrote more notes after when I was editing, because I still have some unanswered questions. I know. First off, can we jump right into her fucking father? Well, so that was chapter forty six. Dad confesses two parties at the sheriff's house, and. Then we find out who was at the parties at the sheriff's ass Right, So I say that was the most amount of sarcasm in the angriest tone I could possibly en. So most of these girls that are brought to the parties, yes, they come of their own accord, but it's girls that have been caught with drugs or have gone into trouble, and it's like a way to keep them out of coersion. Yeah, it's coercion. Yeah. And while when we find that out after they've attended these parties, that's when they get to go to camp with the past pastor. Yeah, and this is so. This is after Heather had like barged into her dad's off. She finally was like so sick of everything that she barged into her dad's office. And she finds his bracelet and he comes in behind her and said, you made that connection. Huh. So they had their own little talk, and Heather at this point has no faith in her father, does not trust him anymore, just zero faith. She does end up going back to work even after they find Brenda. Good job. I'm glad of you. Thank you so much. On the first t yep, fuck off. I have several Barbaras in my life. Okay, I just automatically go to Barbara. I don't know why. So in the next few chapters. I usually break out my notes by chapter, but I was reading it so fast that I just could not keep up. So the next couple notes that I have are So Heather goes to work, both Ricky and Cloudy are not there. Yeah, Ricky doesn't give a reason. No, Cloudy is basically so distraw over Brenda. Fuck you. We got off topic here with the bar bread. So Cloudy uses his excuse of like he's so distraught, he just can't come to work. But to be fair, the manager offered it to Heather as well, and Heather was like, Nope, I don't want it, which. So I'm the same way. Actually not to go to completely tangent, but I as morbid as it might be. Uh. When my grandfather passed away, When my first grandfather passed away, I went to work the next day. I was absolutely distraught, but I went to work because for me, it's better to be busy with something else than I'm not just sitting at home. I can't do anything at that point. If I'm just saying I have at home, I wasn't helping with any of the funeral stuff. I would have just been sitting at home, and I don't like that. See, for me, I have to take a day or two when things happen because I have to be able to process it myself before I can go out into the world. Because if I don't process myself, then y'all are in for a fucking bitchy ass ride and I'm gonna be awful. And I know that about myself. Different from every day how I already knew it was coming here. I was I was gonna say, so every day he's gonna like that one. I like how I called you out on two things before they even came out of your mouth, because I could see you thinking it. Get out of my brain. I love it in your brain. I like to in your brain. Ew I just I really don't like it here anymore. Oh are you uncomfy? I'm very uncomfort you know. Do you like I called you out again? It's too late for this. We cannot. This is exactly why I didn't drink a drink before we started this, because I'm already struggling today. Okay, So Heather gets home from work and catches Junie on the phone, but sees earrings in her hair, in her hair, in her ears, just like Maureen and Brenda, and Heather goes absolutely berserk on her sister. Yeah, but Junie's a little rotten turnhead. Oh I would have beat the snot out of her. No, you know, damn well, who you got those ear rings from. I know who you got those ear rings from. Stay the freak away from him. Right, But also don't throw it in face that she can never wear earrings like that. Fuck that. You had called that too. Actually, you had said, like the reason why Heather isn't picked. And so this ties into a lot of what we had actually been talking about throughout the book. I had said that I think her mother was trying to save her with mutilating her. And then it comes to find out like these earrings that get passed around basically are an indicator that you are the next one. Right, gives me he. Bee Gebi's yeah, it makes me irritated as a. Yeah, so Heather was never going to be a target because she couldn't be. She also did not fit the physical attributes. She was in a redhead blonde Heather wasn't. I know that's saying she has. Yeah, we have a Beth chapter in which Beth gets her spike and start hammering out the door hinges, and I'm so proud of Beth so smart. I have done that before, just from like the door lock, not like locking and not going back. I had to do that. It's not easy, No, it's not, and it's not quiet and good for her. For first off, she's starving, she's malnitraished, she hasn't been outside, she has zero energy, yep, and that was her only fighting chance, and so she's like fuck it. I'm taking it yep, So I think it's later that night, because that's all we get for Beth's chapter was really short. That one was I thinking on like a page and a half. Heather goes to bed, wakes up, and Juni is gone, So. They also have a is it the special Agent. That's oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, because Heather called her father after finding Junie with the earrings, so she at least trusts her father enough at this point to be like, Ed is coming for my sister, because she still believes that Ed is the main culprit. So her father sets up agents the agent, the special Agent in their living room, which to me, I'm also kind of like, why are you not there? Because he's you're trying to find out what happened, knows what fucking happened? Right, Sorry, that is a huge spoiler. Yeah, I am so mad. So while the agent is there kind of like babysitting, Junie sneaks away yep, and Heather finds her gone, just an empty room. Heather freaks out quietly freaks out, yeah, quietly. And then this is a huge part. Heather sneaks down into the kitchen and the special Agent hears her but she's like, oh, just getting glass of water milk to go back to bed, and she takes a knife out of their knife block and sneaks it back upstairs. Yep. Because at this point she's freaking out. Junie's gone. Yep. She doesn't know what to do. Right, she doesn't end up sneaking out and getting her bike and starts pedaling towards dead men. Yep. We have another Beth chapter. Yes, and Beth hears a bunch of footsteps above her yep. And she also hears a little girl's voice yep. And that's where that chapter ends, and that's where we went, No, ma'am, this is not happening, and we're just gonna. We can't step No, we can't stop here. So we ended up continuing reading on and we find out like Heather goes to dead Man's. Heather is smart enough to grab the pills that she's still from Marien's mom. Oh, that's not true, because she's going to make and take them. Yeah. She basically was like, I'm gonna shove and gonna shove these down his throat. I'm gonna make him take it. I'm gonna tell him it's the aniseid or whatever he always takes, and he'll just take them and he'll be sick or he'll die, I don't care. Whatever. Goodbye. So we finally get a little bit of closure at least on what's been going on with the girls. Kind of kind of we knew, we knew at this point what the what we saw Maureen doing, We knew what that kind of was about. Yep, however, the girls are dying. I we all we both thought it was red hairing. We both thought it was red hairring. It is Ed. No, well that Ed has Beth. Correct So Ed has kidnapped Beth because Beth looks like his ex girlfriend who broke up with him and he murdered. So now he is going around like a serial killer, finding girls looked like his ex and kidnapping them. He was planning on keeping Beth basically forever. However, he was not doing a great job at that considering she was starving. Can we really say it was Ed because Ricky and. Aunt right confess, so Maureen was kind of We don't actually find out specifics about Maureen. All we find out was Ricky and Ed were together and then Maureen was gone. Aunt is the one that kind of off Brenda kind of with help with Ricky. Ricky's a little psychopath, Yes, he is, like he's like it's more of a sociopath, I think than a psychopath. I think he just fell in with it and then filled his head and he just was craving that male attention just like you can't. He also just was not He was not in a good way anyways. Yeah, he didn't have a great upbringing. Neither Aunt nor Ricky did. They didn't have great home lives. Right. So Ed at this point has gone downstairs into the crawl space root cellar of the cabin, of the cabin. So everything that we've been hearing, like when Aunt brought Heather in the carnival smell, I think was them. Yeah, or Ed because he did go downstairs. He did. Yeah. I'm wondering if the heavy belt and the heavy footsteps was like him military like he had military stuff and we had mentioned that too, So a lot of those are coming into play. We actually don't really find out what Happenstead. We know he's at a certain point he dies, Beth does, Yeah, Beth does spike him. Basically, Beth fights her fucking heart out and good for her. Yeah, but we don't actually find out specifics about Ed dying, but he is dead. But at this point Heather is in the cabin with Junie. She has somehow convinced well. She tried actually to talk Ricky and Ann out of taking the pills, but Ricky wanted to be just like Ed and was like, oh, I'm just gonna take this because it doesn't hurt him. Well, and I want to mention too, like when Heather got there. Initially, Junie was very much like, mind your own fucking I could slap this child, like, seriously, you don't see how scared I am for you. Because she was writing level Ricky an older man, and I know both of the older guys well. And it's because she does. She does say too. Junie does say later on like dad was yours mom had me. Yeah. She made it sound like Heather and her father. Had a relationship relationship, and I think in maybe her little brain, it looked like that because Heather. I had said this too at the beginning, that Heather was playing the mom role but she didn't have a choice unfortunately, not really, no, but I think Heather. Played both parents' roles for a lot of years. So, yes, there's a scuffle in the cabin. There's scuffling happening underneath too. Heather hears it, and yeah, Ricky takes the pill bottle and. She says, Ricky, it's poisoned. Won't take it well. And I'm wondering if she did that on purpose, to be completely honest, I'm wondering if she was like doing a reverse psychology type thing, because Aunt was like, don't do it, and Ricky was very much like, I don't give a shit. I'm going to do this. I don't care if it is drugs or poison. And it turns out, yeah, he definitely got some of the heart medication because he starts fucking turning yellow. His eyes were turning yellow, which is sketchy as hell. I really believe that's kind of fictional, Like that's pretty It doesn't happen that fast. I don't know if he ingested quite a few. It might maybe depends on how many. Right, especially because he's still a teenager. Yeah young, Yeah. I mean he basically starts o ding yeah. On harm medication and migrant and headache tablets. Yep. But at this point Heather has Junie and then the latch in the floor that she Heather finally sees the latch in the floor. I think it was covered up by a rug or something like that. I think it was open when Heather got there, or the rug was open open, not the latch, but the rug was over it. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes. So she finally sees that there is a crawl space. Yep. Well the crawl space door opens finally, and Beth crawls out with like covered in dirt, covered in blood like. But the first thing she does is she sees Heather and Juni. And that's the first thing she does is she's right there with them. Oh yeah, which is great because she like she knew she heard the little girl's voice and then she she kind of says later that she did hear voices like another girl's voice. She automatically goes into like big sister mode and she's like, no way, right, and she gets them close enough to the door, and again Ricky is irate at this point, right, and. He's gotten the nipe away from Heather at this point. And Beth backs them up to the door and actually tells them to run, and they do, but Ricky chases them. So Beth goes first because it sounds like she knows the area really well. Well, Beth used to go to all the parties out there. Heather made sure Junie was between them, and then we find out that Ricky is right on Heather's tail, even though he's fucked up. Yeah. So they are climbing up some boulders, ran it whichever, and Ricky has a hold of Heather at this point has caught up to it, has a hold of her, and she really thinks she's going over the edge into the Corey pit. Yeah, and she ends up just getting enough of a grasp and she kicked him. In the face and fucked him up really bad. Actually. Yeah. But while this is happening, Beth has Juni and they're like, come on, come on, come on. And finally Heather and Beth make eye contact and Beth just takes Junie and they go right. Because I think, in some unspoken way, this is Beth and Heather basically becoming sisters, yeah, and being like, please just take her. I don't care as long as she's safe, right, But Heather does. I mean, Heather's been a little fighter from the beginning, and she does. She does a number on Ricky and he ends up falling into the cory. Yep, did he pass? Okay, that's what I thought. I couldn't remember. Yeah, yeah, later on it they go and get his body. So later on, after everything is gone, like they've gone to the police station and all that jazz, they tell their accounts of what happened and all this and the age did this happen first? Did she talk to the agent or did she talk to Aunt first? No, she talked to the sheriff first, and then the agent comes in and she spills everything to the agent about her dad and the sheriff and then that especially agent was like Aunt wants to talk to you, right, you don't have to if you're not comfortable, and she goes, I need to do this. And she does. She kind of like is asking him why, and Aunt really doesn't have any answers. No, Aunt really is just like, you know, I just thought it was fun to be with the boys. Basically, I mean, he explains, like, this is where we get the information from what happened to Maureene and Brenda. Yep, Maureene less details, but he had more details on Brenda because he was involved. But yeah, I mean he's he's a little bit psychotic himself, just not. I think it's more misunderstood kid, rather than psychotic like Ricky was. He was just very misunderstood. So after all that, Heather's father is put into protective protective custody away from his family. The sheriff is under investigation. He gets done in his position. They both get done in both of their positions, actually, and they basically just don't return. This is where it gets fun, this is where it gets happy. So now that dad is out of the house, the sheriff is gone, like all of the bad juju stuff is gone, Heather's mother finally kind of returns to a mentally stable place with the help of Maureen's mom. I remember they used to be besties. They stopped being besties because Mariene's mom was sleeping with Heather's dad. Whatever. Yeah, and it's. So cute that they live together and they're healing each other. Yeah. Maureen's mom moves in completely into their house, which is wonderful, and they act just like honestly, they kind of act like a cute little like, let's be a couple like us. We're not platonic wives, yes, but I do love it. They're very supportive of each other because they've gone through basically the same thing, and I'm off, I really do wonder if the party stuff was happening long before and it just got passed down, because it seems like there's some extra trauma there. So they all help out Cloudy. The wonderfish, freaking human, and I hate that we hated him. Cloudy officially like asks Heather to be his girlfriend, and they do, and they are very supportive of each other. The town decides to finally close off the tunnels, which I think it's really funny because I'm like, yeah, I guess the tunnels kind of were an issue, but no, if anything, they should have like banned kids from going to the quarries. Right, but all all super cute Cloudy and Heather build some shakershelves sort of things, and they bring them down in the tunnels and they have a little celebration of life and they put all of the things in and the town comes out, and guess who doesn't come? The freaking priest. No, they didn't ask him to. They asked him to actually not come, I know. But that's what's like, Yeah, guess who doesn't get to come? Yeah? Actually that was well, there's no closure there. There's little bit of closure there. Fuck you, mister, I hate you. Well because again it is mentioned that with these parties that were happening with the girls, they were being sent to the summer camps for like a rehabilitation type of thing. But does he know. Well, that's just it. That is one of the questions that is never answered, and I would love to hear from the author. I need more information. Also tell you how much I have bitched about this book in the last week to my poor fiance. In a good way. No. We were in the car on the way home last night listening to the podcast. I was like, that's wrong, that's not true. Yeah, that's not right. I know, I know. I like listen to some of it back and I'm like, oh, that's gonna be that's not gonna age. Well. My other lingering question, where did Cloudy get that bracelet? Yes? I was thinking about that today. And the other thing that pisses me the fuck off is why is Maureen's dad in jail? Oh? Yeah, that's never really mentioned either. Isn't And I need to no, m I don't know why that pisses me off, but it does deepen my soul. I am so mad. Yeah. I mean it was a good book. I mean it was phenomenal when we got to the end, it was great. I loved it. I think we both rated it four stars. Even though you don't read your books, you rated this one. Yeah, it was good. It was a good book. I would I would highly recommend this one. It was an easy read. It was a little bit hard in some of the topics. Yeah, but it was a good mystery thriller. It also pissed me the fuck off. But whatever. I feel like any mystery thriller that we would read would probably piss you off. Sometimes you get really good answers. I need more fucking answers. Well, I think that's just how it's supposed to be written. I know, but I. See, I don't know. That's I like, this is where we're different too. I like the books that play with your head. Oh. I love that it played with my head. I'm pissed that I don't have the final answers. No, but that's how it plays with your head. After it's done, you're done reading it, like, no, I need more information. Okay, So that was our read for quarter one. Thanks for reading with us. Thanks for listening to talk about it. We will let you know when we have quarter two. Right now, it looks like it's gonna be the one, but that does not mean that'll will be. I was gonna say, if more of you get on there and vote for other ones, we're happy to hear and have all of your votes counted. Also, please, if you think of something that you love as a book club read, tell us so we can add it to our list. I was gonna say, we have a running like book club TBR right now, so. It doesn't mean that I won't read mine off the TVR before we get to that point. But you've wanted to add books on there that I want to read, but you've already read, like No. But it's so good, I don't mind reading it again. It's been like two years since I read it. It's fine. No, come on, I'm shooting it down. Yeah whatever. So yeah, at this point, it looks like we might be reading the one. We will let you know officially next week, So. Get out there and vote to your little heart's content. If you have voted once already, we only count your vote once. To my sister, she's voted like twice, I think, or three times. So I love it. She's very very like, I want to read this one. I'm like, okay, good, but your your vote only counts once. One for each platform. Sorry, yeah, it doesn't work that way. I'm sorry. Although I love the enthusiasm and the comments, I do appreciate that. I will never be mad at that. But otherwise, moving right along. I had one piece of news that I was kind of excited about. It's a book that I haven't read yet, but I really really want to. It's fairly popular, actually, but remarkably breat Creatures is getting a Netflix adaptation and it will be releasing May eighth. I saw the trailer for it. It looks so huge. I need to read it first, I know, but I think it's a pretty easy read if I'm not mistaken. I don't know how long it is. Though, I'll have to see. I don't either. I finished Binding thirteen. Speaking of other news, I finished Binding thirteen and I went to go download I bought Keeping thirteen and I neglected to check, but I downloaded the Spanish version. Message them until them you downloaded the wrong one, and they'll help you. I might have to, but guys, I have exciting news. Oh yeah, that's three you do. One of my pre orders comes this week. My game last week. I've been working on it. I haven't read here. Why can you go? You're doing a good job. I know. I'm about halfway through it, so I'm pretty excited. Mine release is on Tuesday and we'll be here Wednesday. That's so exciting. I still have to read the other one before I can read this one, so it doesn't even matter. I'm struggling with physical books. I'm struggling with reading this month. Actually same. I went onto my book log and I'm like, I've only finished two books. To be fair, I am in the so since my audible download was wrong, I would have understood some of it. It took like four years of Spanish, but I'm not gonna understand all of it. I went on and I had already bought it. But I am listening to Priest. Spy. Well, okay, so you had told me ahead of time. You were like buckle up, and I'm like, okay, whatever, Like I read dark romances. Are you buckling up now? Mmm? Jesus? Like literally, I imagine my face when Bee told me that was what she was going. To read I as someone who grew up in a very religious household. Bee's father is a pastor. Oh, I'm so sorry I didn't. Oh no, oh yeah, Oh this would have been like a huge culture shock for me. So that was the case. Like it's still a pretty big culture shock. And it's like, oh no, I did not piece those two together. Oh I'm so sorry. Because I'm uncomfy with this book, like for no other reason other than the fact that like I'm just like, you are using the Holy oils. For what now. The annoyment. I got to that part and I just like had to pause and I'm like, the fuck, Like, no, you cannot, like at that point, just just leave, just leave the church because you do not you do, Like I'm not Catholic either. This is like the worst part, but I just like I know better. I'm like, no, just leave the church. Just just do your thing, go get your own lub, but don't use the oils. So I am like having some sort of like epiphany with this book, and I am not going to be continuing the next book. Oh my god, No, I don't think my whole body will make it through that, Like my soul will die, like. I'm talking about it turning so red. It feels like a sin talking about his second hand embarrassment. Your freaking cheeks and forehead are so red. I can't with this book. I just cannot. I mean it's very well written, obviously, but I mean I've read. Some pretty fucked up things I have to. But I like that's why. I'm just like, I don't know what it is about this book, but it has made me realize. Like I I I grew up very religious. I would go to church every Sunday. Our family had a specific like that was our family pew. That is where we sat. So I have my own Bible and all that jazz, and I do still have it. I left the church when I was in high school due to some personal things that I was going through. I also just did not agree with our pastor at the time. She's a lovely lady. I just I did not connect with her, and I think that had something to do with it. But I've always kept this Bible. It's in my nightstand actually, But I'm like, you know, maybe I should read like a couple verses every now and then or every Sunday morning. I've even thought of going to see my grandmother on Sunday mornings to because that's what my grandfather and her used to do on Sunday mornings after they stopped going to church. They would do their readings and they would have their own service, which I think is actually very beautiful. And you understand this as somebody who also grew up with a very religious family. Oh topic, but really, one of the wedding dresses I tried on went clear down to my navel and my mom was like her ckrimbler wouldn't Oh, she would really pass away. She would have a heart attack. And I was like, I need to take this one off. Please looks good, but I don't feel like killing anybody who can keep going. But I had thought about doing that too. I just I know that she doesn't get up as early anymore, and she has. Made that very clear. Do not come to my house before nine o'clock. I know. Well, I mean by that time, people are showing up to visit with her on Sunday mornings. So I'm like, maybe I could do it like a Saturday with her. It's not like the Holy Day or anything like that, but I don't think it would really matter to her. So anyways, it's. Not her a prayer book. I think for Christmas this year or last year, I don't remember. Yeah, so I don't know. My husband is not very religious. He swears that if he walked into a church he'd burst into flames. But I am at the point where howis would he be? He'd still go, and he would still I don't think he cares. I don't want to go through the counseling. That's too much for me. Depends on well, yeah, depends on your religion. I don't care. I don't want to do it. Well, okay, so with my religion, we didn't have. There's no counseling. I'm Protestant and there was, so am I if our pastor did that, you did, you had to meet with him. Maybe it might be just church by church in preference. But also like, and while I love him, I'm not doing that. Our pastor has since retired, and he's so funny. He's the salt of the earth. He'll come out of the woods in his hunting clothes, go up, preach, go right back out the door, right back into the woods. I love that though. That is very like country esque style. For his wife was a race car driver, I also love that she was fun. I mean she's still here, They're both still here. But yeah, I mean we had we had a lot of really good pastors. And I guess from what I understand, the pastor that's at my old church is very good right now. But I personally just I have a better time being in my own space. I don't feel personally that I need to go to a specific place to yeah, do that. But anyways, not to get into totally religious. So that's just the book I'm reading. I am reading several books, and I mean as always, but I have. Not finished one physical book this whole month. I said this physical book last month, and I still am not even halfway through it. I don't think I have either, to be completely honest. I finished five five audio books hold On, which is fantastic for me. That is really good. Libby has been kicking off from me right now. All my hold are coming up or have been coming up. It's been prime. Also, Guys, remember how I said I wanted to read James. I listened to it on Libby, and while I hated the first seventeen chapters. Yeah no, I remember you texted me and. You were like, no, M I was so disappointed. I don't actually know if it was seventeen chapters. I don't know. I just know that I was getting really really irritated. Yeah, yeah, it was a good book. It was a really good book. Okay, I guess if we're gonna yeah, no, I okay, so I finished. Well I need to add another one to this. Apparently I never put it on there. I've finished two audio books, both of them Binding thirteen one was Part one, was Part two. I am counting both Guys two and The Corey Girls I put on there as well. So that was on my kindle. Nice, even though I do have the physical copy, and we're both gonna sign it and write a little blurb in it, and we're gonna bring it down to the Treehouse as like a trophy for our book club. You know, would be really cool mm if people put If people could comment on this and let us know that they also read it with us, and we can keep a list of names of people who read with us, that would be really cool too. I'll put it on socials, right, That'd be really cool if someone would comment and be like, Hi, I read this with you. Yeah, we can keep a list of names in the books as we read them. That would be super cool. Oh, that would be really cool. We're gonna have to keep adding names like late babe. Oh. Also, guys, I am super weird about sicknesses. And I listened to everything as Tuberculosis by John Green. Oh my god, it was so good? Was it? Yes? Good. It scared the shit out of me, but it was so good. Yeah. I'm currently reading. I had to put down the Inmate for just a little while because I also got a pre order and she's flying through it. Well, not as fast as I had the last few. This is also like twice the size, if not more than the last few. So Strange Buildings by Uketsu that one, it's almost four hundred pages long. I believe I have it right here. Yeah, it's almost four hundred pages long. It's really good. It is the second book to Strange Houses, so you have to read Strange Houses first, then Strange Buildings. Strange Pictures is kind of separate from all of them, but awesome. All of them are phenomenal. They remind me of like kind of like a true crime Artemis foul. Really, but I'm absolutely in love with these books. I need to get my copy back from my cousin. Yeah, but I'm working on that one. I did, like Alyssa said, I got my arm for my kindle and my automatic page turner so I can just fall asleep reading, which my husband absolutely is like not all for He's like it takes up space and I'm like air space above my head and he goes yeah, because he's nasty. I am so excited because it's getting so much warmer. Last week was like almost all week was in the fifties and some sit two weeks ago. This week it's snowed multiple times. Whatever. It's been warmer. How it makes me hopeful because I can now see the ground again. It was false spring, I know. But I am very ready same because as soon as I can get down to the treehouse, I am, I am moving shit because we won't have to be in this closet no more. I don't have to hear them yelling at each other. I mean we will later after we get done. Right, it's not yelling at each other either. They're yelling at the TVA. Shit fuck fuckers, bitch. We hear it all right, right right? What was the one that we were cackling at one day? What was it fuckers. I think that was my husband. Suckers. There's another one. Oh what did he say? No he was the run round run. No, maybe it was what the fuck happening? I will miss that portion just because like it's been entertaining. Let's get back up here, we'll hear it. I mean, my daughter has been a good source of entertainment. I did include her in last week. Normally I edit her out as best as I can. It was perfect, though, I'm so mad, not as bad as her. Yeah, no, it was really it was good timing. I left in there. I thought it was cute. But yeah, so so next week we will have our selection. We kind of chit chatted about the book quite a bit, which was fine. I sort of God, if this is sucking one, that's going. Back in there. Okay, you're happy about this one. Okay. Favorite bookstores Okay, well, we don't really have a lot. Like ever north Shire. Mmmm. That was so freaking cool. Yeah, it was huge. We spent a lot of money in that store. Yeah. So also, I do have to say, while they did not have any new books, going to the Hobart Book Village was so freaking cool. That was really fun. If you're up in the Northeast and you want to do some book exploring, highly suggest getting an airbnb out there. That was so much fun. I was in the Catskills, I think. Yep. Yeah, but it's called Hobart Book Village and it's literally just a village made of bookstores. Yeah, and there's one little cafe which was super cute. Yeah, we did either. The food wasn't that bad. No, so it was busy, yeah it was, but no, it was really good. And the people were really really nice. Everyone was really nice there, So that was really fun. I mean for me, books stores, I mean I'd much rather go to like secondhand thrift stores or the restore or resource and like I know several of the libraries around here when they do their cleanouts. Yeah, like Crasberry Marshville has won every fourth of July. So maybe we should do. That this year, I think. So we need to record ourselves doing it too for some good footage. But my fiance loves it too. Yeah, your fiance can go eat a hotdog that they also sell there. That's fine. So during the very Heritage Festival as well. They oh, the library there does their big thing too. We did. We got a few books there, but I just didn't do well last time we went. I didn't go last time. It didn't look as big as what they normally have. We were there helping a friend with there with him. Yeah, although the Craftsbury one, I don't know. I'm proud, but I'm also so much money at the Crossberry one. Yeah, well it was so is by donation too. Yeah, but I left with like forty books, so I felt like girl, I left with five bags. We had to carry that shit back to the car. I was like, why did I do? My mother? So I went with my mom and she also got about No, she got more than me. I think she had five bags. I think I might have only had three. Which I got a lot of really good books, like I got Red Rising. I got the whole trilogy of Red Rising, although there are more books onto that, but the main trilogy. What else take it? Oh my gosh, dear America books like young readers? What else? Oh? Charlock? Yeah, Sherlock Holmes, the complete collection of Sherlock Holmes. I was like in love with it. So I got a new copy of A Wonderer. Of course you did. I then my home would be to read because I was like, this is my favorite book of all time, and she was like, great, I want to read it. Yeah. My mom had to come and pull the car around because we also took my daughter, which next time I will not be bringing my daughter because it was hard enough to go and like look in these boxes which they had just a great selection in general, and they had a bunch of kids books too, which I did end up getting some of those as well. Tea was not happy they didn't have any sports books. Oh munch can. Saw. All the books we came home were good. Lord. Yeah, I guess I don't have a particular store. I guess, if I had to say anything, I kind of prefer Books a Million over Barnes and Noble. But that's because they have better deals. Yeah, but sometimes their selection sucks. That's true. That is true. Plus again, we live in such a remote area that bookstores for us are small town bookstores, Like we have one in town. I know there's one in Barry. Uh is there one in Mooresville? I don't there used to be. I don't know if there is now marketing marketing idea. I don't have the time and or energy for that right now. No, I just I don't have the patience for need of that right now, Like I just I have too much going on, Like first of all, like we would never be able to be a full time business and that's not fair, but we do need but a bigger bookstore like in Morse would be the perfect place for one. They just enacted extra one percent, so oh well, right. I don't get me started. I don't get that's the reason I said it. Any who is don't get me started. I came back from town meeting so mad, me too, so apparently so mad that I rammed our truck into the plow. I'm not proud of that. And I was like, hey, you look, and he's like, what happened. I was like, that's who release hit the plow and he goes, oh fuck. It was not one of my best moments. I cried. I was just I was so mad, and we have both agreed that next year I am not to go to town meeting other than to vote. Like, so we'll never go again. I don't care. That was miserable. Okay, guys, we will talk to you next week. Enjoy your week off from reading. Read something else, yeah, or don't that's fine too. No, read something else. I wouldna say, no, read something else, go read a little like filler book. Yeah, of novella, filler book, like your favorite childhood story. Heck, you read a magazine. I forgot to tell you. Well, I told you, but I forgot to tell them. So I made my husband go out to the garage yesterday. I was in a cleaning mood yesterday. My ADHD also was just like, you need to completely change the house dynamic. So I moved the furniture front, which then in turn turned into you need to get out your childhood books and go through because I've been meaning to do it, like we've had the books out in the garage. I just finally had the motivation to do it. But she's also super into books right now, so I'm yeah. Yeah, And so I went out and I had him get all the books. I'm not letting her have some, and that's very selfish of me. She completely ripped up one of her books today. I did not realize she was doing it. I didn't hear her doing it. Anyways, I have almost all of the Berenstein Bears cute, so I have a collection of Berenstein Bears. I have a collection of Franklin Books, and I have a collection of Arthur books, Cute and Little Critter. So I went through all those to make a list, saying this is what I have, so I can like print off the list and like when I go to the second hands, I can feel or when I'm like on WhatsApp, I can be like, what do I have? He did that with his favorite authors too, and every time we go to like a bookstore, he pull so we can cross all. I love the thought process because it's very like minded thinking weird. I love it so much. I love that we think so much like, which. Is probably why I love you. Both makes sense, and when you're not acting like. Him, you're acting I'm not admitting to either of those. You don't have to your faces at all. I can feel myself getting read again, the. Squinty eyes because you're like five. I can't. Oh, but we should have our microphones and our tripod coming in. Oh yeah, our little microphone. Yeah, maybe that's how I should record for now, and as I'll just hold it right here. So it's only for your phone. Okay, I'll just send you. I'm not doing that. That's one more step for me to learn. After the sectomy. Step should be perfect. It's nine o'clock. We've got to go. Okay, we'll talk to you guys next week. I have the best week, guys. I get this girl to bed. Yeah, you ain't lying. Have fun by